January Newsletter

Welcome to 2013

The build up to the December 21 was palatable in the air.  I am still amazed to hear that there were those out there who truly believed that the literal end of the year was Nye.  We have definitely come to an end of an era.  I like many others have great hopes for the future of planet earth. I held a meditation here at Blackwood for those who were able to come.  Maria  held another meditation space for clients in the Riverland on the night of expected exact centre of the change. We trialled a hook-up via Skype to combine the two groups.  I understand it was a little more challenging for the Riverland group!

The change of an era is a bit like watching the sun go down.  The sun has actually been moving towards going down all day and hence when it actually goes down it is not always noticed.  Change has been happening on planet earth for the last few years as we move towards the exact turning point.  There has been evidence of an increased spiritual awareness in many and a crumbling of old power systems.  But we are not there yet.  It will take concerted effort on all of our behalves to bring about fundamental changes to the human social structures that currently exist.  The changing of the frequencies that the new era brings will make it easier for change to occur but it cannot force it.

The major reason for writing my book was to in my own small way contribute to movement of change away from the old fundamental structure of power over – victim and aggressor.  I would like Evolve Your Unconscious Mind 3D booksmallcropto thank everyone who has supported me by purchasing my book Evolve Your Unconscious Mind, the secret to shifting consciousness and changing your world.  The feedback that I have received so far has been very heart warming.

For those of you who would like a copy and cannot get to me, I believe you can now purchase it in most bookstores. It is also available at Soul Alchemy in Gawler and online at www.evolveyourunconsciousmind.com.  I will personally sign your copy when you come in for an appointment.

This year has been a very busy year for me with regards to publishing my book and being involved in all the behind the scene processes that needed to occur.  It has certainly taken me out of my comfort zone and hence 2012 has been a year of great personal growth.  The good thing is the more I grow the more I can help you grow also.  This is something that I think that you, my clients should also remember about yourselves.  As you take the journey of personal development you also enable those around you to grow.  This doesn’t mean that you or I do it for them but that it is hard for someone to remain in their old patterns when those around them no longer play by the same rules.  So from that point of view each and every one of you is playing your part in bringing about change in the world.

A few weeks ago I also completed my 2 year Initiatic Art Therapy Course.  I hope to be able to offer some Art Therapy Workshops in the near future.  Art Therapy is both enjoyable and challenging in process and profoundly life changing to boot. Whilst Art Therapy uses art materials such as paints, paper and more it is not actually about producing an artistic masterpiece.  Art Therapy allows people of all ages to engage in a healing process without the need for cognitive rumination.  Art Therapy engages the inner child and the consciousness of the physical body. The use of colour and artist materials allows us to engage the very deep recess of our being.

The last part of my course involved dealing with trauma, which I personally found very challenging.  However, it has a profound effect on me personally and how I deal with those of you who have also been locked into traumatic events.  It seems that you don’t have to have been involved in an accident or have gone to war to suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome.  In actual fact I believe that PTSS is at the basis of most of our mental health issues.  For some of us we experience profound shock during our early years and quite often never really recover.­

At the moment I am currently re-constructing my website to make it more SEO compatable.  This is a major undertaking and is part of the work required by the individuals who are helping me with marketing my book and my healing services in general. I was hoping that the fresh new website would be uploaded before January 1st however, that has now been and gone so soon…..

coming up next the Soul of 2013

December 2012; End of an Era

I remember the year 2000 with all the hype as we turned over a new century. I also remember at this point thinking only 12 more years to 2012 and the end of an era for Planet Earth.   Back then 12 years away seemed a long time and yet here we now are.  December is also the last month in the Gregorian calendar and so it is the end of our year.  Yesterday on Face Book I saw a post on my feed; 12/12/12 the last time some of us currently alive will ever see a date with triple numbers.   So from many perspectives December 2012 is an ending.  In the continuum of life, endings are of course, also the stage before new beginnings, new opportunities and new energy.

So what does the energies of December 2012 have to offer us all as we go about preparing for year’s end.  December brings into focus the energy of 12 which adds to a three.  This energy has been the backdrop for the whole of 2012.  We will repeatedly experience intense three energy throughout the month of December.  We already had a hit on 3/12/12 (3/3/3) and we will experience this again on 12/12/12 (3/3/3); 21/12/12 (3/3/3) and on 30/12/12 (3/3/3).  Triple threes add to nine, the number of among other things “I am not listening. Talk to the hand”.  It is up to you whether you listen to yourself and what you are trying to tell yourself on these days or not.

bottle3In the Aura-Soma system bottle 3 is called the Atlantean and Heart Bottle.  Atlantean times are of course part of our mythical history.  Atlantis was the time period that marked the last time the Planet went through a change cycle.  For many spiritually inclined December is bringing up deeply held memories of the last time humanity went through a major transition. The energy of three takes us back to our roots not just our ancestral and spiritual roots but also our early childhood roots.  The problem for most in accessing this information is that it does not necessarily come as a vision or words or even an identifiable emotion.  Bottle 3 is the energy of feeling and emotions are just one of the things we can feel.  Most of our emotional patterns are based upon what we feel or don’t feel or more to the point once felt.  Many would rather not feel at all, others feel totally overwhelmed by what they feel.

In our intellectually focused world many believe facts or beliefs are the ultimate truth but the reality is – our feelings are ultimate truth for us.  Most of us have experienced the battle of dominance between their head and their heart.  Whether our feelings are accurate is another thing entirely.  Take the example of how many women believe that they fat based upon the fact that they feel fat.  Are they actually fat? In many cases they are not, but there is no way to convince them otherwise, their feeling is irrefutable evidence to them.  Unfortunately, most of us are driven to do, to have, to behave or whatever else based on the way we feel or how we feel the particular item or person will make us feel.  We go for certain foods based on how they make us feel.  Problem is no amount of food can replace the feel good feelings that we can generate from within ourselves. Smart marketing has always appealed to our feelings or sensory self.

December will be calling us to feel and hopefully for many of you it will be an opportunity to examine your feelings in much the same way you would a thought or belief.  Does this feeling actually serve me?  How am I living out emotional and feeling patterns from my babyhood? For example if you feel betrayed, when was the first time you felt betrayed? Are you now re-living that feeling memory over and over?  In reality once a feeling reality has been experience we tend to re-create that feeling experience over and over.  If you felt unloved as a child, chances are you will still feel unloved now no matter what anyone else does or says. This will also be the case no matter how much you try to convince yourself that you know that someone loves you.  Feelings are our ultimate truth.  We all must be responsible for clearing out the feelings that no longer serve us.  Then we can come into a new way of feeling, a way that enables us to truly nurture ourselves and others.  If you are like most you have no idea how to do this.  I can of course help!

bottle008If we add up the numbers for December 2012 – 12 + 20 + 12 we end with number 8.  In Aura-Soma bottle 8 is called Anubis.  I have spoken about Anubis before back in August.  Anubis was an Egyptian Deity who was responsible for protection of those who had passed over into the otherworld. Anubis was the Deity who help souls cross over from an ending to a new beginning, very pertinent for December 2012 don’t you think?  Anubis was also the Deity who measured your heart to discern the value of your life and the weight of your heart.  The energy of Bottle 8 will help you get to heart of the issues that arise from feeling. Our heart has always been associated with our feelings. During December take the opportunity to discern what is really going on, seeing the truth of one’s own heart and the heart of others.

Finally, December is traditionally considered the season for giving.  Try to dig deep inside and give from within, give from your genuine feelings rather than giving an object that is designed to produce a feeling.  Try not to be so overcome with the silly season of rushing around; caught up in the feelings of frenzied buying. Spend some time to discover how you are really feeling.  The flip side of Bottle 8 is a lack of joy even though your life is going well according to social parameters.

I wish you all a fabulous December and year’s end. I would also like to take this opportunity to thank all of those who have eagerly waited for my ramblings each month.  Your support has been greatly appreciated.  I hope that 2013 brings many new beginnings and opportunities.

For those of you who are interested the 21/12/12 is the most accepted date for the actual end of the Mayan Calender and therefore the end of our current planetary cycle.

Shamarie

Is there such a thing as the Ultimate Truth?

Evolve Your Unconscious Mind, the secret to shifting consciousness and changing your worldIn my book Evolve Your Unconscious Mind, the secret to shifting consciousness I challenge many of humanity’s foundational truths.  Truths such as the power of one and duality and polarity thinking.  If we have the courage to examine our foundational truths then we have the capacity to change our world completely.

I am often asked is there an ultimate truth and I guess there is but in the mean time truth is what you make it.  Each individual operates according to their particular truth and their truth informs them of how to make sense or meaning of the world and the things in it.  The ultimate truth for me at this point of time is that everything is energy and it is the consciousness that inhabits our human form that is the meaning maker.  So what does this mean in practical terms?  Well depending up your truth paradigm you will assign the events in your life to have particular cause and effect and a meaning or value judgment will be assigned to that cause and effect.  For example medicine defines disease as something going wrong with the cell or the DNA or the cell has been invaded by a virus or bacteria.  Usually they shy away from placing any further meaning, they describe the process according to their paradigm of cells and chemicals and the process is the meaning and truth.  But you may have already noticed that science and medicine also keeps changing its mind on truth.

If you are a devout Christian or member of a religious group, usually illness is God’s will and the meaning is for punishment or learning.  Most new age thinkers also attribute disease a similar meaning.  Louise Hay has written many books giving her view of the meaning of illness.  Some individuals place a greater emphasis on thoughts and beliefs and others emotional states.  All philosophical systems whether they be called religion, science, free thought, all seek to understand cause and effect and attribute meaning.  When we are growing up in our families were are both consciously and unconsciously taught the meaning of actions—you love me if you do this, you don’t love me if you do that.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with finding or attributing meaning, but you need to understand that another’s truth or meaning may not be your own.  Living in the same culture does not even guarantee an agree-ance of meaning. So be mindful of the vast differences between genders, socio-economic groups and age generations.  Can people with different meaning making systems work with each other?  Absolutely, I often introduced a “left-field” meaning to my clients.  At the time they probably thought I was a bit loopy, regardless of this healing still occurred. The still managed to shift there consciousness out of a long held truth that no longer supported them.  Not because I was necessarily right but because the alternative truth metaphor was close enough.   The key is to be aware that we are not all working with the same systems and despite that, we can still help each other and work together.

Try to be open to the truth of others, they don’t have to threaten your own truth—think of how many shades, hues and tints of green there are in nature, but in the end they are all green.

If you really rebel against another’s meaning try to look within and ask why you are having an ‘allergic’ reaction to their truth—how does it threaten you?  My experience has been that when this happens there is often an element of truth in what they have said. Or alternatively, their truth is in direct opposition to the truth you personally hold as your personal gospel.

My role as an energy healer is to look at your patterns, identify how they all inter-relate and help you change you fundamental patterns when they no longer serve you.  How do you know if they are no longer serving you?  When you have decided that you are half the person that you can be and you  have decided enough is enough and you want more – you want to live a life of passion and wonder.

The Soul of November 2012

The Soul of November 2012

November the last month of spring and here in Adelaide the weather has been very topsy turvy.  We however have not had the disastrous weather that the east coast of America has experienced. November is my birth month and as such is always the beginning of a new cycle. It is also the last month of the year before the silly season really ramps up.  So let’s see what November 2012 has in store, we have 11 plus 20 plus 12 which equals 7.  If you would like to look at the energies of 20 and 12 please check back on my previous posts as these have been constant all year.

Bottle 11 clear over pink is called the Essence Bottle, the catch phrase for this bottle is: “When all else has failed or does not work use bottle 11.” It’s kind of funny when you think many people come to me for help when they are in this exact predicament.   Pink of course calls you back to love and in this particular case love of your soul.  There is always lots of talk about Love from the ‘positive talk community’, everything is love and beautiful.  Love is not only about the good times, it is also about the expression of love and compassion during the difficult times.  From a personal level “can you still love yourself when you act in a certain ways?”  Do you worry about “Will others still love me if they really knew who I was?” These are the questions that plague us all.  Most suffer enormous doubt about whether the answer to these questions will be a resounding YES!  But how many people do you know that truly love themselves and everything about themselves?  The clear in the top fraction of bottle 11 allows the love to flow through.  Sometimes it all becomes too much and we decide i­­t would be easier to shut our hearts down and no longer feel the pain and fear.  In the end this place becomes infinitely worse than what we were running from.  Self doubt about our security and place in love is the greatest inner demon that we all need to face.  Doubt and fear destroys faith and belief in ourselves and November 2012 is primarily about the test of faith in oneself.

Bottle 7 in the Aura-Soma system is yellow over green and it is called the Garden of Gethsemanes.  Now if we take that theme out of the religious setting bottle 7 is about the test of faith.  This is not a test of faith in anything outside of ourselves; it is the test of faith in ourselves.  Can we do this?  Can we survive and thrive?  Will it all be okay?  The test of faith is in whether we believe and feel that we will endure and be okay.  Even when disaster strikes our lives or things are not going as we would want.  In the Americas this is exactly what they are going through.  For all of us as we stress about our relationships or our financial situations our stress is driven by our fear that we will not be okay.  Without going all biblical on you, there is a phrase in the bible that states something like this “if you had a tiny drop of faith you could shift mountains”.  Faith and belief is the energy that makes all of the techniques covered in The Secret and many other self-help modalities work or not.  Unfortunately most have stronger negative beliefs and faith driven by fear than they do positive.  Bottle 7 has a lot of yellow and you may remember from last month I talked about yellow is either great joy or great fear.    Each and every one of us must decide whether we are going to have faith in something or someone outside of themselves or whether we dare to find the courage and faith from within.  This is a scary place for many because they do not have the faith in themselves.  Most do not believe that they will be enough, that they will be okay.  But more than that, we worry that we will not thrive when life throws us a curve ball.   This leaves us all with a deeply rooted sense of powerlessness and we certainly cannot move mountains in this state. It is these deeply seated fears that we must all take responsibility for removing.  Strength of spirit comes from the investment of time and effort just the same as strength of muscles. I would love to be able to help you achieve strength of spirit and a strong faith and belief in yourself and your true potential.   You must take the first step.

Have fun during November, stretch your limits, and discover what you are truly capable of!

Shamarie

Book Launch and Birthday Celebrations

Some of you may be aware that at the beginning of this year I was accepted by Global Publishing to have my book published by them.  It has been my desire to write a book for many years. Though I never really knew what it was going to be about until I wrote it.  The writing of the book was easy, it was all the marketing, editing, etc etc that followed which was my biggest challenge.
So after many months of hard work and challenging personal growth tomorrow is my book launch day coinciding with my birthday.  This launch is specifically for you, my client community. I have chosen tomorrow on this birthday as I am the same age as the year I was born.  There may well be a special prize for those who guess what that magical number is!
 
As a special offer your can grab my book for $27.95 during the month of November
 
My book will probably not be in the book stores for a few more weeks. However you can grab a copy from me when you come into clinic this month. You can also purchase my book from my website that has been set up specificially for my book.  So without further adieu let me introduce-
In my book you will discover:
  • The deeply imbedded mind structures that keep you stuck
  • How your language describes and creates your world
  • The reasons why no matter what you do you never feel good enough
  • The hidden psychology that prevents you from getting the life you want and deserve
  • How New Age thought keeps you locked into old thinking
  • Life changing information that will guarantee that you will never look at your life the same way again
  • Why you keep doing the same things over and over and how you can break the habit
My book is specifically written for all who want to grow beyond where they have always been and become part of the solution rather than part of the problem of society’s current disfunction.
You will find in my book in depth information that I have never before released. Information about the negative consequences of polarity thinking and the shadow side of the Power of One.  I also discuss the ancient philosophical roots that underpin religion, science and new age thought.
My book is specifically written for all who want to grow beyond where they have always been and become part of the solution rather than part of the problem of society’s current disfunction.  
You will find in my book indepth information that I have never before released. Information about the negative consequences of polarity thinking and the shadow side of the Power of One.  I also discuss the ancient philosophical roots that underpin religion, science and new age thought.
A great Bonus Free Gift comes with the book :
 
The Transformation Zone Guided Meditation

The Soul of October 2012

Here in the Adelaide hills Spring is truly here.  The wild flowers are blooming and the days are becoming warmer.  October of course is the second month of Spring and the energies of October are going to be a change of pace from the heaving duty energies of the preceding months.  Let’s look at the numbers for October 2012; we have 10 plus 20 plus 12 which equals 6.  We have been dealing with the 20 and 12 all year so I will not go over them again, so let’s initially look at bottle 10.

Bottle 10 in the Aura-Soma system is green over green.  Hidden within is of course yellow and blue.  We will look at them in a moment.  Green is the frequency of our planet – Earth. It is the colour of healing, a large part of our natural environment displays a multiplicity of green.  Bottle green has four major facets:

  1. connecting with nature and experiencing your oneness with nature.
  2. if you have a ten in your birth date you often find that it is hard for you to be yourself around strong personalities.  You can end up being what they want and say.
  3. green can be quite stubborn and resistant to change, it can be frozen with fear.
  4. green is the colour of jealousy and envy.

It is quiet curious when you think about it, that a colour that is so abundant and nurturing in our environment is also aligned with one of the most destructive emotions humans can express.  Jealousy and envy is felt by many when they perceive that someone has something that they believe they should have.  In that moment of thought they believe that there is scarcity in their world and therefore they are missing out.  Jealousy and envy usually only has one means of recourse and that is to take what we believe is rightfully ours and/or prevent the other person from having what it is we desire.  Jealousy is called the green eyed monster for good reason.  So yes this month you may find yourself battling the green eyed monster from those around you or from within yourself.

As always in order to move forward in our lives, to be able to live happier and more fulfilling lives we all need to clean up our shadow emotions.  Our shadow emotions are natural in that they are part of our psyche.  That however, doesn’t mean that we cannot grow past them.

The brighter side of green is of course being in touch with nature.  Getting out there amongst nature and enjoying the beautiful environment we have here in Australia. This is where the yellow contained within green can help. Yellow can be the colour of fear or courage.  Choose courage!  Connect with the brave yellow daffodils of spring, often the first spring flowers.  Spend time out enjoying the yellow warmth of the spring sun.  Allow yourself to be nourished by green and yellow, the colours of spring.  We have had a long cold and dark winter on many levels.

Yellow can also help you stand up for yourself, speak your truth, do what you want to do rather than be dictated to by the forceful personalities around you.  Just for fun re-acquaint yourself for the 60’s song by Donovan, Mellow Yellow!  Though I realise it will not be a re-acquaintance, it will be a first introduction for some.

One final note on bottle 10 is that it also has blue contained within.  As I have said in previous months blue is concerned with authority and often with fighting perceived outside authorities.  Whilst this will continue in this month to some degree I feel that the energy of blue in October will be considerably more mellow, a time of finding peace.  Just be and enjoy the return of spring.

We had a look at bottle 6 in June, Red over Red. So let me just reiterate.  Red is such a vibrant colour it can mean unlimited energy, passion and warmth it can also mean warning! Red is also the colour of blood, the symbol of truth and sacrifice.    Red is what we need when we are depleted emotionally, mentally and physically. So wear red when you need extra energy.  Red like green can also be very healing.  It is all of the red vegetables that are so full of valuable anti-oxidants.  If you are going to get yourself into trouble this month it will be if you combine the potent red energies of sexuality and anger and dance with the green eyed monster! Red is also considered a warning colour for good reason.

The slogan of the flower children in the 60’s was make love not war.  Use your red energy wisely!  Despite the fact that red caused a very fractious month in June I feel that October is going to be more balanced.  The mass joining together of the peoples of Melbourne as they mourned Jill Meager is very much exemplifies the energies of October.  Standing together, seeing how we are all connected and standing up for what is right. What effects one can affect all. This does not mean that I don’t think there will be challenges with angry or jealous people, but that the events are more likely to bring about change and positive growth and awareness.

I hope that you all find the sunshine of yellow, the peace of blue, the healing of green and red energy to enjoy it all during October.

Enjoy

Shamarie

The Soul of September 2012

This September is going to be a very “Virgoean” Month, In a nutshell September is about authority, striving for perfection and  the criticism that comes from authority and stripping yourself back to your virginal self.  You may remember I alluded to this in The Soul of August. The energies of this have already been stirring around in the later part of August, especially with the superhit of the Blue moon right on the last day of August.  Blue moons are not literally blue it is a saying to describe an event that only happens occasionally.  However, two moons in one month means that everyone’s emotional body has had two hits of tension build up.  Often this means that people start behaving badly when they man not have ordinarily as they can no longer use their will power to keep the emotional charge under control.  A moon cycle is similar to a physical menstrual cycle in that you can feel the build up and then the release.  Only the moon cycle effects both men and women alike.

So let look at September in more depth.  The numbers are 9 plus 2012 which adds to 14 which breaks down to 5 the number of emotional, physical and spiritual trauma, and learning to use your energies wisely.

September is the 9th month of the year and hence bottle 9 blue over green.  In the Aura-Soma system this bottle among other things links us back to pre-current age civilizations of which Atlantis is one.  Many including myself believe that we are still carrying within our energy systems old structures that belong to older civilizations.  What I mean by this is that your energy system has old circuitry that is from a much older time.  It is now time to start becoming aware, (should you so choose) of these structures and getting an upgrade.  However to enable an upgrade we have to be able to first recognise and let go of the energy we personally we have been adding to and running through these old systems.  I am calling this old system very Virgoean and very pertinent to bottle number 9 and September is very much about rebellion against perceived authority which asserts the perfect way.  Whether this perfect way be in the form of appearance, feelings, actions, knowledge, it doesn’t really matter.

With the belief in perfection comes generic authority that is meant to embody perfection and it stands in judgement of our own individualized perfection and authority.  The concept of perfection and resultant criticism and judgement robs us of our individuality.  We can see the social outworking of this as laws and procedures are put in place by authority to identify perfect behaviours, standardized ways of doing things.  We are all being treated as a number or a machine rather than an individual organism that has its own ways. Most feel that they cannot take on the “system” or Big Brother (which has returned to our TVs once again) and so they find individual’s who they can rail against. The problem for all of us until this energy system is removed it is self validating and self perpetuating because it leaves you two choices as an individual either to stand in a place of self-righteousness and assert that this way or your way is the absolute truth not only for you but also for others.  The other alternative is enormous guilt.  Most people waver between the two positions.

I could write a whole lot more about the energies at the moment and the need to change from the old structures you will be able to read more when my new book is released mid October.  However, the main thing I want everyone to understand at the moment the criticism and the resultant, judgement, resentment, hatred and persecution does not come from the fact that your mother or father criticised you when you were growing up.

The other major influence for September is bottle 5, yellow over orange.  The bottle embodies our trauma of being overly dominated and or abused by another individual or institution.  A traumatized individual in the end is anyone who has not been allowed to be their true self or their true self has not been accepted as perfect.  All of us know that when we are acting out of our pain we become very unfriendly people to put it mildly.  Every  time someone criticises us or we feel judged we fall into the deep pain that we have all carried, a pain that literally breaks our hear t and crushes our spirit.  The kicker is however, we are usually far my critical and judgemental of ourselves than anyone else.  Think about that next time someone is viciously judging you, what must they be doing to themselves and what are you doing to yourself to allow it?

The good thing about Bottle 5 is that is offer hope and bliss of recovering from “critical abuse” you can find your own bliss once again, find out who you truly would or could be is you dropped the generic or family way to be.  The choice in the end is yours, if you don’t know how then get help from someone who does.  The freedom from perfection means that you no longer need to know everything or do everything yourself.  You all know were to find me Lol

I will leave you with a poem I wrote in 2009 for you to ponder.

I Wonder!

My body silently weeps

Perhaps it would be better if it went back to sleep

But now it’s pain dredges up from the deep………..

I wonder what I would have been

If you had only seen

That I was more than you dreamed

What would I have been if I was held in great esteem?

Perhaps I would have fulfilled all my dreams

I wonder what I would have become if I was held in great esteem?

What would I have been if torture was not your game?

Perhaps I would not have felt so much blame

I wonder what I would have become if torture was not your game?

What would I have been if my body was hallowed and sacred?

Perhaps I would not have been desecrated

I wonder what I would have become if my body was hallowed and sacred?

What would I have been if you had seen the magic in my eyes?

Perhaps you would not have told me so many lies

I wonder what I would have become if you had seen the magic in my eyes?

What would I have been if I was treasured and considered rare?

Perhaps my face would have been considered most fair

I wonder what would have become if I was treasured and considered rare?

What would I have been if I was nurtured with respect?

Perhaps I would not feel such a reject

I wonder what I would have become if I was nurtured with respect?

What would I have been if you had not felt the need to control?

Perhaps I would not feel such a need to withhold

I wonder what I would have become if you had not felt the need to control?

What would I have been if not considered innately evil?

Perhaps I would have spread my wings a flown like an eagle

I wonder what I would have become if not considered innately evil?

What would I have been if I was more than a lowly Hoare?

Perhaps I could have been the one you most adored

I wonder what I would have become if I was more than a lowly hoare?

What would I have been if your eyes held love not lust?

Perhaps I would have learnt to trust

I wonder what I would have become if your eyes held love, not lust?

What would I have been if I was swaddled in love right from the start?

Perhaps I would have grown strong of heart

I wonder what I would have become if I was swaddled in love right from the start?

What would I have been if you had seen my light and beauty?

Perhaps I could have loved more than from duty

I wonder what I would have become if you had seen my light and beauty?

What would I have been if I was dearly cherish?

Perhaps my life would not have been so nightmarish

I wonder what I would have become if I was dearly cherish?

What would I have been if I was honoured and revered?

Perhaps I would not have become so severe

I wonder what I would have become if I was honoured and revered?

What would I have been if I were deemed worthy?

Perhaps my life would not have felt so lonely

I wonder what I would have become if I were deemed worthy?

What would I have been if I was the one you loved and adored?

Perhaps I would not felt so ignored

I wonder what I would have become if I was the one you loved and adored?

What would I have been if you thought my value beyond compare?

Perhaps I would not have felt such despair

I wonder what I would have become if you thought my value beyond compare?

What would I have been if you had protected me when I was weak?

Maybe I would have learnt words of power to speak

I wonder what I would have become if had protected me when I was weak?

What would I have been if you had touched me with tenderness and care?

Perhaps I would not find life so hard to bare

I wonder what I would have become if you had touched me with tenderness and care?

What would I have been if you gave more than you took?

Perhaps I would have had a very difference outlook

I wonder what I would have become if you gave more than you took?

What would I have been if you used words of love, not hate?

Perhaps my heart would not have to break

I wonder what I would have become if you had used words of love, not hate?

But Oh well it was all for the best

Isn’t that right? It’s just a test?

Well I guess you and I did our very best

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger

But for how much longer

Must I wander in order to grow stronger?

But now I am afraid it’s hard to remember

How to fan love’s glowing ember

But you said it’s all for the best remember?

I am finding it hard to get out from under

From memories of the past let me be torn asunder

Oh to live a life of love and wonder!

Use September for your own metamorphis, transform from the caterpillar and become the beautiful butterfly that you were always meant to be.

Shamarie